Tear in the heart

It's been weeks since my last current post I know, I'm sorry about that but I never said this would be a perfect start-up. I also mainly am writing today to get stuff out kind of like a self therapy session. Love, whether that be for family, friends, partner or significant someone in your life, the fact of the matter is that love is amazing and beautiful. Love hurts and I feel like society builds a false fantastical view on love and that happily ever after. Love and human connection I believe are essential for growth and life and we cannot survive without it. But the more of yourself you give to someone the more potential that person has to hurt you. Now I'm not saying that everyone is like that or that it's always the same level of hurt. It varies depending on the person and how stable and secure you your bond with that person is. I in this instance am referring to the romantical sort of love. The kind that makes your better judgement just disappear when you hear their voice or look at their smile. That is what tears apart my heart . And I don't feel like going into detail about said person or the situation that has lead me to write this, but love just hurts. I guess that's all for now and probably will delve deeper into that subject of ... We will call him x at a later date. Just not feeling it now. Have a wonderful day my imaginary and loyal audience.