From the top

Hello it has been close to four years since I have written anything on this blog that I made for school, and there in lies the mystery for why...it was school. Highschool as a matter of fact and highschool was not one of my fonder memories and as I read over my old posts it is apparent to whoever reads as well. I am now 22 and obviously a different person than I was in highschool, so let's take this blog experience from the top and do proper introductions so you all know if you ever read who I am in this moment. Also because I don't think I ever really did an intro to myself the first time I wrote on here. HELLO you can call me saudade it wasn't my name before and I don't know how it has changed because I didn't change it but I like the ring of it. I am here again to write simply what I feel like writing and to express things I feel need to be said for me or for others if you feel particularly connected to something I say. I am 22 if you missed that before and I am trying to figure out my life which I think is something everyone goes through at one time or another. I'm not sure where this will go but that's part of the fun about not knowing it drives you crazy but if you look for it there is beauty in the unknown.