Staring eyes

This post is from my journal that I was to scared to share during journal jam.

COLORS

my personality is rainbow.

Some people tell me that my soul is black but my soul is purple. Why? Because I said so!

People say I need to smile more, well my smile is invisible because no matter how many times I smile white they only tell me to smile more.

I'm blue because I cry when no one is looking, which is all the time because no one is ever looking.

No one knows but I'm orange when I'm happy. Like the sun I can burn bright but eventually someone decides to turn out the lights.

Sometimes I'm pink because that guy outside when I walk to schoollooks at me.

But most of the time I'm grey or just between blue and red, I'm sad or angry with myself, others, the world. Thats why my soul is purple.

Hate

I have got a lot of hate in my system right now and I don't know why but I'm just going to roll with it. First off I hate this freaking computer because when I'm typing the curser just decides to jump to different parts of the page while I'm typing and a sentence literally becomes sjdskrueifsjcnxn.             ( Stupid school computer.) I hate being to scared to talk to people when they are probably pretty nice people. I've just come across a lot of jerks in the past. I also hate having this face that looks like I am constantly frowning because I am not usually sad or anything I just really hate school and the pressure of trying to fit in. I hate girly cloths sometimes I wish I was a boy because they can just throw a tee shirt and jeans. I also hate submitting the wrong post in the wrong place does this sentence even make sense? whatever, this list could go on and on but I think I should stop before I turn into scrooge. bye

music on my mind

   Ok so I don't know about all of you but I am clueless on what my brick post should. I'm just not that creative Nelson! I've been brain washed by society for to long. I mean I have a hard enough time trying to figure out who I am let alone what to write on this post or blog.

    There is one thing that I could post and it is the only thing in my life I can think of that would match bricks perfectly and it is "brick by boring brick" by Paramore. I realize that a lot of my posts have been lyrics but music is my life. "With out music life would be a mistake" as Friedrich Nietzsche put it so perfectly. (I got that from here comes the boom which is also a great song and movie.) Anyway I recommend you listen to it because it is a great song. I'll leave the link below if you want to listen to it. k bye;)www.youtube.com/watch?v=A63VwWz1ij0

Blog

I honestly thought I would be done making blogs but I am currently at this moment sitting on the couch helping my dad make a blog. It was petty fun pretending that I knew what I was doing because I don't. I only know the bare minimum because of nelson. It makes me wonder if my dad knows what he's getting into because maintaining a blog is hard and writing a post that someone will actually read is way harder. It could just be me though because everyone else is amazing at writing. Best of luck to you dad!

Metamorphosis

I started out human but I feel less and less human each day and minute that I exist. I am the aftermath of a zombie when my flesh falls from the bone and what remains is metal and gears. I find myself constantly taking refuge around technology. I've tried to stop but there is no escape I cannot go any where without the influence of technology. My parents say that I'm addicted but how can I not when they keep making,updating,advertising,practically shoving technology into my open willing hands.

and all of these iphones,tablets,and computers have us brainwashed. we cannot seem to break the hold they have on our brains and it is slowly sucking up our humanity until we are nothing but robots and machines just like them.