college

It is 11:25 pm and i have no one to talk to but I have to get this out of my system, so if anyone reads this it is not for you it is for me. I am so sick of silence and of being so afraid to speak to anyone ever. I hate myself. I know I should be accepting of my flaws and keep trying, be brave and all that crap. Its easy for you to say you are not me. I'm tired, I'm sick of having to face myself and always not saying what I want to. I hate being so alone and knowing its my fault because I am weak and scared. I am tired of crying my eyes out because even the people I call friends think I am weird or not normal and that there has to be something wrong with me not even knowing they are part of the problem.

I'm tired of being me.